Studio time & Fears
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Earlier this week I recorded a new song at The OC Hit factory that will be part of my EP which hopefully will be ready by May 1st. I was really nervous about getting back in the studio after my surgery since my entire upper gum has been cut open and my jaw has been so badly infected – read more here. Furthermore I normally always go over a new song with my vocal coach but I got the song so last minute so I didn’t have time to. I really didn’t know how it was going to go especially recording so shortly after a serious mouth surgery. I decided just to go with the ride, I had absolutely no expectations and 100% shut out that little voice inside my head saying “I’m not good enough”. As I started to lay down the vocals it felt so different and I had no control due to my surgery. I knew it wouldn’t matter what I did so I went with the groove and the way I felt and I delivered my absolute best vocals ever!!!! The song is so dope and I’m so proud of myself. I can’t wait to share it and for the first time I have no fear or anxiety about sharing it with the world.
It is no secret I’ve been bullied really bad for always knowing what I want and allowing myself to dream big. Even though I have moved on there is still a scar inside of me from those times. Before the bullying and the hate got really bad I was fearlessly pursuing my dreams, not afraid to mess up and just go for it. Which is the only way to know what you are truly capable of. For many many years I never allowed myself to live out my full potential so it feels so great to record without any fears! And yes I did mess up in the studio but I also delivered beyond what I thought I was capable of. Therefore the mess up’s suddenly don’t seem so relevant.
Follow your dreams they somehow know the way<3